It’s winning

The only thing I’m sure of in life anymore, is that at the end of the day, I’m alone. Despite how everyone may say they are there for you, as soon as you even mention how dark it is in your head, everyone runs for the hills. As if I choose to have this darkness […]

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my love

I’d love you with every fiber of my being if you let me. That’s what you asked for, when you get it it’s not what you wanted. It’s too much at times but not enough at others there’s too many tears or there’s too many smiles there’s too many ups and there’s too many downs […]

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New Year, new me?

As per usual I rung in the New Year sad and alone… but its my own fault. I always tend to fall into a deep depression at this time of year and of course I keep it to myself. I don’t open up anymore because I’m afraid people are so sick of hearing about it. […]

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the other side

Does anyone talk about the other side of having a mental illness. We all know the dark side, the side that hides and lives in the shadows. But what about the other side? I do the opposite of what a lot of people do, no matter what, I rarely hide away and vanish. Yes I […]

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blurred

If only I had the courage to take my life, a selfish act you say? Can’t I have just one, for myself. I spend my days fighting battles you will never see. Emotional exhaustion is something I have yet to overcome. Because even when I sleep, I am still waging wars. There is only so […]

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I’m tired

I’m tired. of trying, of living, of hurting, of crying, of doubting, of everything. I’m tired of never being enough for people. I’m tired of people telling me I’m not doing what they think I should be doing. No one knows what its like to be inside my head. Every day I’m fighting just to […]

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set me free

I question everything I know, my fear has begun to show. The things that I thought would mean something to me, and could always set me free, that made me who I wanted to be… There are days that I don’t even know my  name, why have things become so strange. I don’t recognize who is inside no matter how hard […]

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