It’s winning

The only thing I’m sure of in life anymore, is that at the end of the day, I’m alone. Despite how everyone may say they are there for you, as soon as you even mention how dark it is in your head, everyone runs for the hills. As if I choose to have this darkness […]

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My demons and I get in fights about you Daily almost But of course it’s crazier then it sounds Theirs that naive cutesy side of me that’s hopeful and believes in everyone and magic and unicorns, and she also makes excuses for people when she doesn’t get any in reality Crazy right? It gets better! […]

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my love

I’d love you with every fiber of my being if you let me. That’s what you asked for, when you get it it’s not what you wanted. It’s too much at times but not enough at others there’s too many tears or there’s too many smiles there’s too many ups and there’s too many downs […]

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Learn from this

My mental illness has ruined a lot of things for me. In situations with extreme emotions, it comes out, and I lose control. I don’t think before I speak, I lash out. It convinces me that everyone is against me and wants to hurt me. I say things I don’t mean. I try to hurt […]

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Darkness comes

I can feel it stretching over my being,the darkness coming in full force. I don’t know how to fight it I guess, II’ll just have to let it come. My skies are clouding over, there is sunshine outside but not in my mind. I’m so tired, it’s so difficult fighting these battles alone but no […]

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A lie

Being lied to cuts like the dullest, most jagged blade. Even more so when it comes from someone you trust most. Maybe it was a lie to protect me, or protect you… but when does lying ever make things better, or feel safer. That trust has come crashing down around me, like a thousand pieces […]

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Self Destruct

The only time I can write is when I’m extremely depressed! Guess who is self destructing again!? That’s right, its me! I’ve been trapped at home for the past few days, as the weather here in Canada is an utter shit show! My demons have been feeding on me non stop, its been great! Filling my head […]

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