A battle is going on behind my eyes.
and every day, takes its tole on my soul.
I don’t want to fight it,
But I can’t let it to consume me.
I’m so tired of questioning everything I feel.
Thoughts always racing through my head,
never knowing what is real.
I need more reassurance,
but I don’t know how to ask for it.
I don’t know how to survive in a world
that is ashamed to feel.
When I feel every little thing to the extreme.
Am I the one that is crazy?
Or has the world just gone mad?
Why am I so afraid of what the future holds.
Death has become my fantasy.
The idea of feeling nothing,
of being nothing…
Its a dream.
I am sick of being stuck in my head.
My thoughts wreaking havoc in my brain.
I want to escape.
Then there was you,
You bring peace.
You silence my demons.
My darkness is in awe of you.
But only when you are here.
Other wise it fills me with doubt.
I second guess everything.
If only you knew the power you have,
you could destroy me or save me.